The hardest thing I ever did was admit to myself I had a problem. For years, my drug of choice was crack cocaine and alcohol. Since elementary school, I have been abusing one drug or another. What did I have to show for it: job losses, relationships that crumbled, and jail time. But besides these things, I also had guilt, loneliness, lack of self-control, anger, tears, suicidal tendencies and painful memories. Drug court helped me understand that my drug addiction was causing or fueling these other problems. Now, I have been clean for seven years. I entered drug treatment Court in 2008, and have been clean ever since. Drug Treatment Court was the best and hardest thing I have ever done.